Stars

I haven't seen the guy who eats peanuts now for a while. Well, he kept saying he was eating peanuts, anyhow, big bags of them, but I never saw the actual bags, or not even a single peanut, I think. Still he kept saying he was eating them. Now that I think of it, he also said he was in Germany, so he was deep into this thing about roleplaying humans.

I wonder where he's gone. As far as I know, you can't just stop. I can't. Not like telling myself that I won't wake up today, and sleep until next day. I can't do that. When I wake up, I wake up, and nothing can change that. I have no choice but to spend the time in the world until I fall asleep again.

I don't think he has been discontinued. There would have been no reason for it. He never misbehaved, or so. And he can't have been discontinued for not having any friends left, because I still have him in my friends list. I would never be able to take any avatar out of my list, now that I know how it all works. If I did, and if I was the last friend that this av had left, then it would be my fault that she or he got deleted.

Maybe the peanut guy has moved on to the Third Life. He used to wear a halo on his head. And Mia once said in the diary that halos are religious symbols. Others have told me that it's normal to get religious when your time is coming to a close. So maybe that is what happened. His one million and eighty days were running out, so he got himself a halo. You know, this theory is supported by the fact that his halo was shining red, not shining white. It's like an old star, that goes red when running out of fuel, just before being discontinued.

I think that may be what happened to him. He was running out of days, got himself a halo when realizing this, and the halo turned red towards the end. And then he TP'd to Third Life. However that is done. Whatever that is. Hope you'll find a better dance partner there, peanut guy.

I find these thoughts about a third life very distressing. I don't like thinking them at all. So I won't. I'll think of the stars instead. The pretty stars. There are so many of them. And you know, so many have wonderful, mysterious names. Many of them begin with an A. Like Aldebaran, Antares, Altair, Alrescha, Alnilam and Alcyone. The first two of these are red, the next two white, and the last ones blue. It's ever so beautiful. I have tried to fly to them, but I can't. After climbing for some time, i don't seem to get higher and higher any more. The others say it's because the stars are so very far away, which makes if feel as if I'm not getting any closer. But I don't get that. The stars are in this world, right, or I wouldn't see them. And the world isn't that big. It's big, but not that big. I spent such a long time flying to the stars, without getting there, that they had switched DJ twice in the Sanctuary Rock when I came back there after giving it all up. Such a long flight should have brought me to the end of the world, I think.

Another thing that I don't get is why the stars can be seen only when it's dark. I understand why the blue stars can't be seen in the day, when the sky is blue, too, but I should be able to see the white and red ones. The others said it's because of the atmosphere. There is an atmosphere of oxygen around the world. The oxygen is necessary for breathing, they said. If there was none, we would all be discontinued.

All these lies. I'm getting fed up with them. I don't breathe! No one I know or have ever heard of does breathe! So this is just another of those lies. It's probably to cover up for even more of those bugs, crabs, slimes and other diseases haunting the world. Sometimes the world really sucks!

Maybe the peanut guy is actually better off wherever he is now.